“There’s nothing like deep breaths after laughing that hard. Nothing in the world like a sore stomach for the right reasons.”
― Stephen Chobosky
“It always shocked me when I realized that I wasn’t the only person in the world who thought and felt such strange and awful things.”
― John Green
“Just remember this- weird’s good. Embrace the weird, dude. Enjoy it because it’s never going away.”
― Tim Tharp
All of these are pretty recognizable quotes from popular books about growing up and change. Friday marked the end of the first week of sophomore year. This has easily been the most uncomfortable week of my life. Everyone told me that this would be a huge change for me, but I don’t think I was really prepared. It’s strange how college fits every stereotype created in those indie coming of age films.
In this past week I have felt so many emotions, such as fear, sadness, anger, confusion, joy, and happiness. College can be a very lonely place, everyone has crazy schedules and very rarely do they fit together. The first couple of days were really though, at one point I seriously thought that I had just made the biggest mistake of my life, but after the initial fear disappeared and I came to grips with being homesick I decided to reach out to others. I began to make friends really quickly, I realized that I am not the only person who feels this way.
College can also be a very awkward place. It is a place where people learn and grown and change. I have already noticed things changing about myself: I have become more environmentally conscious, I have been more observant of others, I have had my eyes opened to new music and food, and I have learned that it’s okay to be uncomfortable and to take risks. It’s nice to not feel special, knowing that a lot of people are experiencing the same things I am makes me so much more confident in all the falls I have and will take (literal and metaphorical, that Den booth was out of my sight line).
My favorite part of college so far has been the people I have met and bonded with. I am so lucky to be a part of such a welcoming yet tight knit department. I have a small group of friends and we all just happen to very similar schedules. They are all so fun and friendly. I also have a group of girls who I bonded with instantly and they are so empowering and I genuinely feel like I have known them my whole life. My old friends are also just as wonderful and they have been introducing me to even more people who are equally fantastic. The memories and relationships I have been forming are so beautiful and all of these people hold a place in my heart.
The first week of college is done, I have three more years. I can already tell that they will be the best three years of my life. To find a home in an unfamiliar place is going to be an adventure for sure. Here is to the unknown and awkward and uncomfortable that is making this experience so magical.
P.S. This weeks album suggestion is the Paper Town’s Soundtrack